I’d like to say that I have a love/hate relationship with people. There are so many freaking awesome people out there, and then there are so many freaking douchebags to go with them. Unfortunately, often times they hide in the guise of the other, and you don’t find out til it is too late. I am grateful that most of the people that I consider friends out here so far fall into the cool people category, and I have been able to limit the awful ones to a minimum.
All that being said, how fucking hard is it to be honest with other people? I’ve had this issue with others before, and once again it’s rearing it’s ugly head to annoy me again. I like to just be straight and honest with everyone. If someone asks me a question, I will respond with the honest truth of how I feel or what I know to be true. I will not tell someone something unless it is the truth. I don’t need to worry about who I tell what to, because no matter what it will all add up. I don’t worry about saying certain things about people when they are not around, because almost always it is stuff I would say to their face. To me this is a good way to be.
So why do so many people have issues with the truth of the real world? If you are a certain way, then fucking be that way, and be honest with yourself and others as to who and what you are. Don’t do things that you would not admit to later, it is never worth it. But seriously, embrace the person that you choose to be. If you don’t actually like the person that you are, then fucking change what it is you do. Life is too short to be ashamed of who you really are.
With all that being said, why the fuck do people lie all the time? I don’t think the standards I hold myself to are so damned unreachable that others should not be held to similar set of standards for themselves. When I actually take the time to try and get to know somebody, I actually want ot try and get to know them. I don’t want to get to know their persona, or the fake person they pretend to be. I actually want to get ot know the real person, aka the person I was trying to know in the first place.
So if I come right out and tell someone to be straight with me, because I can see right through their bullshit, why would they continue to lie? Why would they take that moment where I lay all the shit out on the table and continue? I mean, if the jig is up, and I am being serene and honest, is it too much to ask others to be the same back with me? Is it too much to have other people who claim to want to get to know me better not treat me like I am a fucking moron? It is not easy to lie to me, I will know, I just usually let alot of shit pass.
Anyways, I ask out loud, how hard is it to find people that actually want to act like I am an intelligent human being, and not some fucktard that just wants to get laid?
And this is yet another reason why people piss me off.